every second ~

Over the last 5 months, I got to know someone whom I really wanted to know a long time ago. It must have been at least a year I've been quietly taking peeks, trying to work the math on how to approach her, scratching my head figuring out how to make first contact. Most important of all - first contact. Mind boggling it was!

It all started with a couple of book receipts and I found myself having little nudges in my heart. Couldn't really explain what the feeling was, neither was I capable of understanding how it all transpired. It simply wasn't a feeling I'd get everyday. It felt all too foreign to me. When I found myself wanting to know her, I knew the little nudges in my heart meant something.

Strangely, it has been an up and down, somewhat roller coaster ride in the whole process of trying to get to know her. It has made me understand better about the complexity of the human emotion and it always takes two hands to clap.

Above and beyond that, I learned something more important. Every little second of the moments I have had chances to be with her are little treasures for me to keep safe and warm in the treasure chest in my heart and memories. It doesn't really matter if I have had a minute or hours to be with her even if it's from a distance, it still is a precious moment to me.

If I could slow time down to enjoy a second a little longer, I would. It didn't matter even if it was time spent staring at her or simply having dinner with her or an evening with her and friends. It's something I would really hold on to dearly.

Not everything is certain in what we do and sometimes not everything turns out as expected because that's how God designed our lives to be and that is the added colour to our lives. But at the end of the day, I'd still gain something - lifetime moments of which I can think back and still make me smile.............. every second that meant to me.