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Tired and confused?

Having classes on Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays is anything but fun. To top things up, there are additional classes on weeknights on an ad-hoc basis. At this point in time I am very much tired and I am facing bounded rationality - being pounded with information and facts! The tough part is this - having to attend classes after work is already a challenge for my brain. On top of that, my weak basics on the current subject is making the uphill challenge even more challenging than it already is. So everyday my mind is constantly asking itself, "HOW AM I GOING TO TACKLE THIS???".

Being a person that tends to plan things out and thinking about possible outcomes, this time I am all out of ideas and no matter how many times I try to simulate outcomes I only end up with bad outcomes. Working hard is a forgone conclusion when it comes to succeeding in anything one does, but even hard work cannot bring about impossible outcomes. The problem is, all this time I have been relying purely on brute hard work; and now I have come to realise hard work simply is not sufficient.

Right now, I am sinking into a deep sense of frustration knowing the fact that I am weak and struggling. Of course, having work does not help in any way. Time as it is, is already so precious and I had to sleep in office again! This time I only had 10 minutes sleep, and I worked for close to 36 hours. The next day, I looked and felt horrible. I am beginning to wonder if all this is worthwhile or not? A friend of mine recently tried to apply for a permanent resident (PR) status to live in Australia but he was rejected because he could not meet the minimum requirements, which is some point system. Here's the surprising part - he's an ACCA grad, pretty good academic record, with about 2 years experience in auditing and currently doing the CFA qualification. How on earth could he not be accepted? Then came the bomb shell, apparently auditors aren't really in demand in Australia.

Bottom line -------- I am tired and confused!
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