Weekend was tough with so much studying going on! Towards the end of Sunday i was becoming like this -------> @_@ And I thought university classes were tough? Topics that were done over three to five days during university are now being done over one day, in case you might be wondering why I turned out like this @_@. As the class goes further and more in depth I am starting to feel the pinch bit by bit and starting to feel some fear, worrying that I might not be able to find time or find enough awareness to be able revise or study effectively. Even as at now, more often than not its 60% seeing the notes and only 40% reading the notes. Trying to get the facts to sink in into my head is anything but an easy task! It makes it a lot more difficult to study since I find that what I study does not necessarily apply to my job..... it can be somewhat demoralising at times, honestly. However, the same way I thought when first walked into my office ,"just shut up and work hard!", I am going to have to apply that to my studies as well if I am going to do well. Of course, to avoid burning myself out I am just telling myself I do not have to do well or score fabulously as long as I just pass the paper. But deep down inside me, there is that yearning to score well. *sigh* I cannot believe I seem to be having this battle of needs and wants inside me. Is this a common trait in humans? Is there a way to control the human mind on "needs vs. wants"? Feel free to leave a comment if you have any suggestions.
As for now, its back to work!
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