Coming back home from work yesterday was a pretty nice feeling, knowing that I do not have to attend any classes during the weekend, and I get some break from all the hussle and bussle of my work life.
Sometimes I wonder why I never stucked on to the music profession. Coming to think of it, there was flexibility in both the nature and timing of the job. Ironically, I always thought I was going to make my first job my last job. Sitting down right now, looking at my monitor typing this out, I am now unsure of whether that will be true in time to come. It is a difficult world of rat race out there! Forgiveness in the work place is hard to come by, and you have to work hard simply to maintain your place or position. And I am not even touching on working to get a promotion yet. The question of "is it that worth it?" lingers behind my mind. It is a disturbing feeling that I can not provide a solution for at this moment in time.
I am too surprise about the reaction of my mind. All this while, since I was about 16 years old, I always thought that this was what I wanted. But now, I am in a daze regarding that vision I once had. Is it really, really, really want I wanted? I honestly do not know now.........
But what I do know and realise is that I let $$$ get to my mind and I am paying the price now.
LESSON LEARNT - Do not ever let $$$ get to your brain!
Sometimes I wonder why I never stucked on to the music profession. Coming to think of it, there was flexibility in both the nature and timing of the job. Ironically, I always thought I was going to make my first job my last job. Sitting down right now, looking at my monitor typing this out, I am now unsure of whether that will be true in time to come. It is a difficult world of rat race out there! Forgiveness in the work place is hard to come by, and you have to work hard simply to maintain your place or position. And I am not even touching on working to get a promotion yet. The question of "is it that worth it?" lingers behind my mind. It is a disturbing feeling that I can not provide a solution for at this moment in time.
I am too surprise about the reaction of my mind. All this while, since I was about 16 years old, I always thought that this was what I wanted. But now, I am in a daze regarding that vision I once had. Is it really, really, really want I wanted? I honestly do not know now.........
But what I do know and realise is that I let $$$ get to my mind and I am paying the price now.
LESSON LEARNT - Do not ever let $$$ get to your brain!
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