The past 2 weeks and presumably the next 3 months will be challenging period for me and many in the place I work. Many will be resigning with the coming of the promotion period and for many who have completed three years working experience to become chartered accountants. With many leaving, loss of friends, increasing workload, drop in motivation - one's morale will definitely be affected.
As for myself, trying to separated between what I want to do from here on becomes an unprecedented task of mind boggling complexity. Forget the pun, long story short - I have to make up my mind soon on whether I want to continue doing audit or to move on into tax advisory. Both paths are equally lucrative monetary-wise, both with differing job scopes and requiring differing sets of skill. Not that it gives me a headache or anything but it confuses my mind since there are so many unknown factors to consider. Three quarters of the time, it is always the unknown that winds up becoming the bullet or bullets in one's head! To make matters worse, the finger pulling the trigger to the bullet usually belongs to our very own hand. Quite profoundly true, it is always the unknown that raises worries.
Decisions trouble all of us on a daily basis, from as simple as "what's for lunch?" to "what shirt should I wear today?" to "which tie should I put on?". Frustratingly true right? This should give you a good picture of what I am going through but at a larger scale of course, given my future is at stake.
Time and time again, I keep asking myself, "what am I doing?", "what is it I want out of myself?", "is this who I am?". I get different answers all the time, as if being in a schizophrenic state of mind switching virtual personalities from time to time. I guess the mind does play tricks on people especially when choices are of abundance.
As for myself, trying to separated between what I want to do from here on becomes an unprecedented task of mind boggling complexity. Forget the pun, long story short - I have to make up my mind soon on whether I want to continue doing audit or to move on into tax advisory. Both paths are equally lucrative monetary-wise, both with differing job scopes and requiring differing sets of skill. Not that it gives me a headache or anything but it confuses my mind since there are so many unknown factors to consider. Three quarters of the time, it is always the unknown that winds up becoming the bullet or bullets in one's head! To make matters worse, the finger pulling the trigger to the bullet usually belongs to our very own hand. Quite profoundly true, it is always the unknown that raises worries.
Decisions trouble all of us on a daily basis, from as simple as "what's for lunch?" to "what shirt should I wear today?" to "which tie should I put on?". Frustratingly true right? This should give you a good picture of what I am going through but at a larger scale of course, given my future is at stake.
Time and time again, I keep asking myself, "what am I doing?", "what is it I want out of myself?", "is this who I am?". I get different answers all the time, as if being in a schizophrenic state of mind switching virtual personalities from time to time. I guess the mind does play tricks on people especially when choices are of abundance.
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