The Path of Time

Its amazing how time just zooms pass us each second, minute, hour and day. Looking back, it has already been close to six months into my job. It also means everyday I inch closer to my exam papers. My thoughts for now is very simple - survive the current wave of job stress and study stress, and other things can wait. Trying to ensure I do not jeopardize my health is not and easy task considering the fact that I stay up late at least 3 out of 5 working days to try to slot some time to study. Most of the time I guess I may be only seeing my notes and not reading the notes. A typical case of body in presence, mind in absence. Another sad note to add today, is the fact the nice senior I am working under currently will be leaving my firm in a few months time, but still within the firm umbrella in a different state of Melaka, her home town. I guess, one may find it difficult to work away from your home and birth place for too long - after all, leaving one's love ones behind for better pa...

It is now Wednesday and two more days before the progress test for Audit and Tax subjects! What sort of feeling am I getting? I'd say it is a feeling of scariness and worries....... Somehow I keep getting the feeling that I am missing out something or I might has just slipped reading something - frustrating! To kill the frustration and relax my mind, I turn to this and of course listening to my favourit music. As much as I would like to continue working on my current mix, I cannot let my mind deviate from this Saturday's test. After all, it is the only way to assess myself up till now since commencing classes for both the subjects. This test will tell me whether I am HERO or down right ZERO. Honestly, I am afraid.... very afraid. Experiencing the lifestyle of working and studying at the same time, I really admire those who have gone through it and passed the examinations. It is indeed not a easy feat. There are even those that study and still produce fantastic job performances....

Finally getting to finish work slightly earlier yesterday - I finally got my squash game I longed for so long. Having start work, time really is valuable and I sometimes I do wish I could get back into college or university ~ just going through the less stress lifestyle and a more free life! Back to my squash game - it was simply great! All the sweat, panting and adrenaline rush was simply fantastic after close to 6 months of inactive participation in the game. Not surprising, I have become considerably unfit due to the lack of exercise. First match - no problem, second match - feeling the pinch but still holding on, but by the third match - I am all out of gas! All in all, I had a good run yesterday and I certainly hope to be able to play more often in the future. Health is just as important as my work or maybe even more important. Since yesterday could be a rare chance for me to exercise, I made full use of it by going for a good steam bath! ~sure miss those days when I was training...

Nothing beats listening to Beatles after work to unwind just before I start revising my studies. How's that for relaxing? :) After such a long time, Beatles are pretty entertaining actually..... probably because I can relate my work to the song 'A Hard Day's Night'? The end of the week will be an important day for me and a friend of mine, Max. It will be the first major meeting for us, and for Vagrant. Vagrant is the project has been in development for the past 2 to 3 years. It is pretty much the brain child of Max. At this moment in time, I will not release any information on what Vagrant is. But as soon as we decide to kick off the project, I will indeed disclose what Vagrant is all about. For now, I am going to get back to my studies........ not really in the mood to write today since I am actually quite tired from work today (problems with deferred taxation actually) :P

When I was younger, I remember a saying, "it is never necessary for any of us to walk exactly on the line. When did anyone say you can't walk by the line?". How to relate it to our lives? Simple - it is true we should always plan and try to stick our plans. But, life is far from perfect considering how volatile life's circumstances can be. Bearing in mind what life can sometimes throw at us, it is all about blending and adapting to the circumstances. After all, we have to remember we cannot expect circumstances to fit us. We are but one small insignificant lifeform in collective terms! So, we are the ones who should adjust. It was never easy, it is never easy and it will never be easy. We simply have to take what comes at us. And that, is what I have started to learn. Although only a bit of it - learning but slowly. I think, I think... I am starting to like my job bit by bit. Quantifying it would probably be 55% - like the job and 45% - I do not like the job. So, judg...

It is already into the month of much and the temperature is really going up! Having enrolled wrongly for my part time ACCA course, I suddenly find myself in a wedged situation. From having to take only two subjects I now find myself facing the fear and tension of four subjects. On top of that, out of the four I will have to self-study two. So now, I stay positive! After all, things could be worse. Looking at the brighter side of things, if I pull through, I shorten the potential time needed to finish the course. And I supposed, promotion prospects would be better. So things are not as bad as I thought it could be. But I have to admit I am no superman and I sure as hell do not have a brain of high caliber. But one thing I do know, if I put in enough effort I am sure I can get something out of it. All I have to do now is, keep my guts going, work hard and go all out to pull through. Bottom line, I have got a lot of people to prove wrong. A rugged road lies ahead for me, from now right up...